I have been exposed to manganese toxicity since birth and I don't know what to do

I am 17 right now, and I live in Ukraine. I want to share my terrible experience of how well water could destroy your life. Right now, I’m in the culminating moment of my life (education, earning money, living an independent life, etc.), so, as a human being, I worry about my future. But I am cognitively unable to do things. I am in a state of constant anxiety, depression, panic attacks, and sometimes hallucinations. I am unable to coordinate myself like others, especially when driving. No one understands this shit, so everyone says that I lack willpower and stuff, but I am unable to do basic human functions sometimes. I always knew something was off about me, but I never knew what, and now I understand it. I am looking for a specialist who could manage these symptoms, but I’m broke and have no other way. i feel like im on the line and im going to give up