Just can't feel better after surgery

I had appendicitis a little over a month ago and I'm still not feeling alright. I'm exhausted of course, my gut is wrecked, my muscles hurt. I have myofascial pain syndrome so basically it's a game of waiting it out. Normally I can't eat a lot of foods and I'd figured it out to where things were really good after a lot of pain. It's slowly getting better but now I have no clue if or when I'll be able to have control again. And I'm not even capable of recognizing if I'm actually sick or not. Part of this I believe is due to neurological issues that prevent me from processing these things but also that I was already in pain. I was reluctant to seek medical attention initially until days later the type of pain was too severe and too different from normal. I was completely miserable a week post-op thinking I was flaring up but it turned out I had an infection that needed immediate medical attention. I've been getting in my head about it even though symptoms-wise it's much more likely this surgery just made everything I was already experiencing worse. (It's still not healed so I see the surgeon again today. Not half as concerning as the last time tbh.) I just want to feel ok ish. I'm scared of future medical emergencies since everyone has some at some point. I clearly can't handle them well. I've had no way to explain to people that I probably shouldn't be living alone/without people checking on things for many other reasons but no one has understood/believed me except for a couple of my friends. This really cemented it. I decided to just leave and get a place with them after my lease ends because of all this. I need to start working again and I have no clue how I'll manage it. It was hard enough before. Also of course the surgeon is a guy who will push back on everything you say by default. I joke around enough that both times I went to the ER the staff were nice but didn't seem to believe there was anything serious until it was apparent so imagine a guy who just doesn't really care if you're not literally dying. Basically rolled his eyes when I started talking chronic health things. Didn't believe me on topical allergies (usually mild but ended up being medically significant). I don't think there's anything serious but you know the type it doesn't matter if you're miserable. I'm functioning enough to take myself to the office so I'm fine. I'm bitter knowing he'd be treating me with more disdain if I were undiagnosed and not in treatment. This is probably half coherent I'm just so exhausted and need to rant. I hope this ends soon or they can give me something to fix it. The guy who told me all probiotics are the same and just pick one off the shelf giving me the magic cure. Lol