Morning panic attacks

So I have had anxiety along with adhd for a long time and i built a good steady toolbox. I was working out frequently and hard, breathing/ hydrating meditating, and manages to reduce benzos by a lot almost to nothing which fixed my nervous system because long term use makes you worst. But I finally got a pink line in my pregnancy test after a long time in fertility treatments- and now I wake up in panic and retest sometimes 4-5 times a day entering this doom fog. I have a blood test on Saturday - and I already know all the tools. Im just exhausted… the spiral the sweat waiting for the results even though I literally saw it 1 hour before and almost addicted to these damn tests is ludicrous… after I have my L Theanine and coffee i calm down (For adhd Coffee / not strong/ just 1 cup ) can actually call the nerves, but being anxious will only hurt me in this situation… I really want rather than help it. And I hate how I spiral. I have spiralled so many times before but I got a ‘handle’ ob mg anxiety only to know find myself back here deep in this painful fearful suffocation … I can only do light walks now as per doctor orders no weight lifting and maybe that’s having an impact on me too I meditate in the morning and that also helps but before it used to HELP help but it .. helps a BIT. I’m so jealous of ppl who are just chill … like my husband is one of them and im thankful for it… but its exhausting