Just ranting.

Why is it I never really hear about women with PCOS in the wild struggling with their periods. Like not just the inconsistencies and backing up. But like the fucking pain. I've had normal flow years I've gone without flow for months and years but JESUS when it's regular but not regular the FUCKING PAIN IS UNBEARABLE!!!! I've had bad "normal" periods but after being dry or spotting for weeks then BAM normal to heavy flow week on period hits me and fucking christ my knees hurt my spine hurts i feel every cramp in basically my whole body. It gets so bad all I can do is wince and curl up n wait for the shaking to stop. I know I can't be the only pcos girly who knows exactly what I'm talking about. It's been so bad, on medication and pain relief. That I've been hospitalized and yet nothing, I'm expected to work to do day to day tasks to just be okay. And I never know when it's truly coming I never know when the next period will be one of these. I've passed in and out of consciousness due to the pain. I've gone numb due to the pain. Yet all any doctor can say is it's just another not fun side effect of living with genetic PCOS. Every woman in my family has faced the same issues but talking about it is seemingly shameful. "Disrespectful" for all the women who had it worse n worked through it.. Idk. I feel alone I feel like a hurt animal and I feel like there's no comforting myself. Also extremely hormonal so forgive the self pitty rant.