Anxiety Attack Where Brain Says Mean Things

For the past three days, I’ve had nothing but on and off beeping and it feels like it’s coming from inside of my head. I know it’s not actually there. I was talking to my mom about this and she has mental health issues as well and she was like it’s probably just an auditory hallucination nothing super serious. I’ve also had this happen before with a different type of beeping, but this is incredibly annoying. I’ve had anxiety issues and a suspicion of bipolar too for a long time. A therapist that I had had said, she believed that I was bipolar. I didn’t necessarily wanna believe it. I am under a lot of pressure because I’m at the end of my masters degree and I’m starting a new job next week. My therapist is currently out of the office. I tend to have anxiety attacks that are almost like out of the blue or from nowhere. While having the current anxiety attack, my brain kept telling me your mother is not here to help you. I also heard my brain say something like so. You can’t even do anything right. I also kept telling it to just shut up. I just kept telling myself that I needed these inner critics to just shut up. And the beeping is like really annoying and I know it’s not there and it probably is from intense stress because I’m in the middle of my thesis of my grad program. I’m going to see my doctor tomorrow. It’s just the fact that my brain is like see you’re crazy, it will just keep saying things like you’re insane. You’re hearing things you’re psychotic. Some part of me knows rationally that I have sensory issues to begin with, and that I am prompt to the sort of thing in general. I just really need someone to talk to that understands what I’m talking about. I keep getting panic attack attacks and I scream in my sleep and I have anxiety so bad right now. I’m like crying as I write this. I feel like I’m like losing my mind. I don’t think I actually am. I just want to go to bed and not feel tense or like my head is going to pop off. I keep thinking that something really bad is gonna happen to me, but I don’t know what. I’ve been equating the beeping noise as a logical reason that something really bad is gonna happen to me and I’m gonna die.