considering quitting.

TW/// ideation, 23 F.. ER intern… you know the whole jist. Understaffed hospital pushing us to ER shifts + surgical shifts every hour of every day blah blah Here’s the thing, i’ve always been anxious, i know it so viscerally well i can write 5 books on it. never medicated. ever. The sheer stress of every shift lit up within me - for the past 9 months- the most horrifying feeling of doom. I can no longer care for anything other than my shifts, i am on holiday and i spent all of it, simply distracting myself from my next shift. I have constant fever every hour of the day, stomach aches, headaches, non stop bleeding -TMI- i sat on my bed on my birthday night and simply wished to TWWWWWWW // cease to operate. This ideation has been consistent over the past months but now, it’s as serious as ever. Maybe i keep saying i’m not okay and that’s perhaps why i am in fact not. Is this legitimate or are my feelings completely made up? i just want to figure myself out, i’m terrified. Please do help me, I can’t keep on going like this, please do tell me what to do. have any of you encountered any such situation due to work?