Waiting for the day I can myself permission to stop.

Not much more to it, I just needed to put it in writing somewhere. I'm looking forward to the day I can go out, have a nice lunch out and then let everything collapse. the day I can stop struggling against the inevitable, against the world uncaring and malicious as it is. we reward cruelty, we reward greed, we reward viciousness. we are in hell, and there is only one escape.