Worst anxiety of my life, not sure how to cope

Please be warned there is mention of nausea and getting sick. Context: 1.) this kind of thing has happened to be before but i bounced back a lot faster. back when i was a child i suffered anxiety associated with nausea that would prevent me from going to school. i would feel anxious and sick on the bus and only last 30 minutes once i arrived before id retreat to the nurse and eventually get sent home. afaik i did this for at least a week before it got better. i only recovered by forcing myself to stay 2.) the last time i threw up i was around 8 and i am now almost 29 so its been a long time. typically i can “will it away” even if im wasted or greened out on substances 3.) recently i got sick for some physical reason and actually threw up, bad. i cried a lot during and after, felt like my confidence regarding controlling that part of myself was shattered Issue: Ever since getting sick recently i feel like i’m always gonna be sick. At first it was every now and then, but now it’s practically all day every day. I am convinced it’s mental because if I distract myself enough with something (lately games) I can function. I tried various anxiety coping mechanisms but they haven’t done anything for me. I get shortness of breath and hot flashes when it’s really bad, makes me extremely nauseous to the point i’m sitting on the floor of the bathroom hugging the toilet. I try hanging out with friends to get my mind off of it but it’s somehow worse. Like all i can think about is how “i’m gonna get sick in front of my friends and it’s gonna be worse than if i was alone” and i know they wouldn’t mind and would mostly just be worried for me, but my anxiety is horribly irrational like that. It has been a month or so since i got sick and I can’t get myself over this, it feels like it just keeps getting worse. Every time i eat anything i feel nausea, and when i don’t eat obviously my stomach hurts. I’m trying to reach out to some doctors for meds. Used to be on zoloft i wanna say 4 years ago now, very small dose, but before it could really do much the psych fucked with me and i pulled out. Haven’t been on meds since. I’ve been trying natural remedies and supplements like chamomile tea, ginger, ashwagandha but it feels like nothing is taking the edge off enough.