I need some help...

I am in a transphobic third world country, i am still a college student, i dont work, and i can't rely on someone else to help me travel and transition in another country, how do i cope? i wear nice clothes, i do my nails sometimes when i am in my room alone, and can't be seen, but i need ro cover myself every time i leave my room, i still have parents that i am dependant on. i am so scared of applying to a job, that i am just willing to rot on my room... is there any magic solution that can save me, or do i need to accept that unless i work, i will be sad forever?