Feeling so ungrounded after a breakup/ life changes

I (22m) dropped out of University a year ago, realized it wasn’t working for me even if i was interested in the material. I work in Wildland fire in for 6 months to make most my money for the year and this fall was the first time getting out of the job to be fully, on my own. I met someone and for first time with anyone, dated for a 2ish months till I realized we were incompatible and I couldn’t open up about my feelings with her and had to make the hard decision to break it off. Since then, I took a solo trip to Mexico to see family and reconnect with that side of my identity and felt like I had made progress healing from the breakup and felt genuinely alive, content, and present in the moment. I could eat, exercise and socialize easily and got really motivated to better my communication and Spanish. I came back two weeks ago, and being back home after being an intense relationship during my first time without a routine or social group from school, has really turned anxiety on overdrive for me now. Feel there is nothing more to look forward too, to motivate me to keep moving, I’ve stopped working out, eating well, and feel distant with my friends, and worst of all, feeling pain from ending that relationship, a constant reminder of a time when, I did have something positive to look forward to, now it feels paralyzing to go on, without a set track, uncomfortable at home, with only the coming fire season to remind me time keeps moving. I’m better overall than I was a year ago and am very proud I can say that, just, never have had such a constant anxiety loom over me in the day to day that makes it feel almost impossible to hope for the future and like I’m drowning, even if things are really not that bad. Just felt like getting this off my chest and journal if anyone has any comments they’d like to say, thank you for reading all my words y’all