Are These Symptoms During an Anxiety Attack Normal or is it time to seek Medication?

I have noticed my anxiety attacks are becoming more violent in nature physically- as if my body is furious that I won’t give in to what it wants. These are always 1000 times worse at work & yes, I know I need to quit. I am actively looking & applying to other positions and hopefully will be accepted in an entry level position for my career. I’m going to list the physical symptoms below 👇 Heart palpitations Hysterical crying Hyperventilating/sometimes I stop breathing Electric feeling in my arms My hands curl and cramp (my right one being painful) My face also goes numb (this one is new so I have not asked my doctor yet about this one). It kind of pisses me off my closest friend seems to think I am able to control this. I might be able to calm myself down quicker with breathing or the five senses method, but I feel like when I’m anxious this just explodes out of me and I have zero control. I feel like I’m dying even though logically I know I’m not. The same friend is trying to help me find ways to calm myself down because now even they (who is anti medication) are starting to say this is going to make me physically ill…. And that this is not okay my body does this. My friends are becoming concerned my blood pressure is going haywire (I know it probably is) and are afraid I’ll stroke out when I’m older. Anyways… is this normal? A lot of this is triggered by workplace stress which is why I have not done medication… idk if I’m really bad enough for that. Any advice would be wonderful too. I hate my body- I feel like it’s betraying me and throwing a tantrum just because I’m not giving in to it wanting to run away. I’m so tired of dealing with this and I’m embarrassed my coworkers have seen me spiral so many times. And now my friends are concerned for my well being too :/.