Am I just a cis girl if I like having boobs sometimes?

Edit: I apologize. This post might come across as insensitve to some trans people. Sometimes I love having boobs and sometimes absolutely despise them. I'd much rather I had a flat chest and masc body bc I believe I'm a trans boy and I've felt that way since I was like 8 or 9 but lately, I've been questioning it all over again since most trans guys have chest dysphoria. I love how my boobs look sometimes, sometimes I like how curvaceous my body is and wish I had bigger boobs but then most of the time I'm dysphoric bc I don't have a masc figure and would much rather have that or at least feel comfortable in my feminine body instead of having mixed feelings like that. I usually hide them with baggy clothes or hoodie bc I just dont really want people seeing them but other times I don't really care and like to wear girly tight tops and stuff. Idk what's wrong with me? I still wish to be a boy but idk nowadays I feel like I should be okay living as a woman but I just don't see myself having a future as one and I'd much rather live as a man. Am I just insecure about my body or what idk? I see pretty boys and wish I was them but lately, I find myself comparing myself to pretty girls I see on the internet. Idk I just feel so lost rn