My Character Development

ever since I was little, I was getting bullied constantly by girls at my school. This caused me to mature extremely early (since I was 3-4). I remember everything vividly due to my Hyperthymesia (a condition where u remember almost every event in your life vividly) till this day. The bullying calmed down when I went to high school, because I’ve transferred to a different country. I should be feeling better now that the bullying has stopped, but the weird thing is that I feel exactly the same, if not worse🙂 I was hit and cur$ed and rumors were spread about me my entire life and I had no personality or knowledge that I had rights, I didn’t even know that existed. I was bullied my entire life and the moment I speak, everyone’s against me. The looks I get and the backbiting, the rumors, just because the bully was someone in value or “loved”. When I became a junior I realized that I should’ve complained to the ministry of education and not the principals because they never did anything, and that’s why the school had shitty people (it was a well known school and it was private). I shouldn’t have thought it was my fault when it wasn’t, I should’ve known better, I should’ve took my right right there and then; now it’s all regrets about “I should’ve done this and that”. if you’re reading this and u were like me getting bullied or harmed in any way, speak, don’t shut up, never sit down and think that you’ll get over it someday, because you won’t. I think about it every single day and it’s stuck with me forever. Now thankfully I’ve developed character and I’m still working on myself and I’m proud of how far I’ve came, even though there were “bad attempts” and trauma, I’m still working on forgiving them because I don’t wanna hold any more grudges, God bless!😁