Feeling scared and discouraged

This is disheartening. It won’t let me attach the photo of findings so apologies for the lengthy post EXAM TYPE: US PELVIS ROUTINE INCLUDING TRANSVAGINAL EXAM DATE AND TIME: 2/11/2026 11:23 AM EST INDICATION: n94.6 k59.00 r14.0 COMPARISON: none FINDINGS: LMP was on 1/28/2026 Transabdominal and transvaginal ultrasound of the pelvis was performed. Anteverted uterus is seen measuring approximately 9.1 x 3.7 x 5 cm. Small amount of fluid is seen within the cervical channel The endometrial stripe thickness is about 5 mm. No masslike lesion within the endometrium and myometrium Positive sliding sign is visualized The ovaries are not seen due to shadowing bowel gas There is no adnexal mass identified. There is no free fluid within the pelvis. Impression: No acute findings Ovaries not seen due to shadowing bowel gas Positive sliding sign No definite argument for deep infiltrating endometriosis Normal ultrasound of the uterus I still have an MRI to come, but I’m so afraid she’s going to go in during my lap and not find anything I sit here right now on my heating pad and am having pelvic pain post transvaginal ultrasound. I know my bowel is inflamed, it always feels like it’s shoving my ovary into my hip bone. My specialist is highly respected and recommended in the area as being the best to see for pelvic pain and endometriosis treatment and surgery. She told me I have all the clear signs and symptoms of endo, but to expect that scans would be clear.. we are moving forward with surgery regardless. I just was hoping I’d be one of the cases where you could see it before surgery so I could stop gaslighting myself into thinking it’s all in my head and I should suck it up. Symptoms : Since age 16. Severe bleeding, bleeding so much all at once I would pass out in the hallways of high school. Unable to walk, hysterically crying due to immense pain. Now, age 33- birth control no longer helps to control symptoms. IBS like symptoms, pelvic floor pain, internal hemorrhoids that flare up during period and ovulation, diagnosed with hEDS and MCAS, shooting pain in anus, deep throbbing pain in vaginal walls. Cramps in low belly, lower back, radiating down the thighs. Bleeding varies, but can sometimes be so heavy I have to wear a cup, pad and period underwear all at once, or it’ll be light but I bleed for 18-20 days. First couple days of period I am bedridden. Symptoms do not always correlate to period, I’ve had two of my worst flare ups when I was in the middle of my birth control package. My intuition tells me I have bowel endo, but I have been gaslit for so long I almost am expecting the worst outcome, which would be that they find nothing. I guess my question is more a plea for some support