I'm tired of everything

I don't think I titled this well, and this is admittedly a vent post but I don't know where else to put my thoughts. I don't want to be alive, I never asked to be, and I'm tired of sticking around to appease other people. I don't want to disappoint anyone, so I've spent my entire life pushing for goals that other people have expected me to have since I didn't know what else to do. I'm tired, and I don't want to do this anymore, but I also don't want to hurt the people I care about. I'm exhausted and don't know what to do at this point. I can hardly go a single day without breaking down once I get a moment to myself.